Going back to square one

Recently, enjoying more and more peaceful time by my self or a small crowd. Probably it has been like this all the way but sometimes it's kinda get lost with the circumstances. I remember back then, room mates often spent time chatting together till late at nite, I tried to excuse my self, going to bed and reading a book till the sleep picked me up. It seems this inability to grasp many voices at the same time often makes me confused thus tired.

Most of the time, I have chosen the road less traveled. I remember, old friends complained that I do many thing on my own, I managed daily swim at nearby pool, ate out at restaurant or even went to the movie alone and fully content with it.

I realize, often coming back from a gathering getting tired, very tired. It almost like spending a day in a big mall, with the noise that makes you feel older in few hours. The never ending lingering sounds. The switch of topics from one to the other, it's uneasy to follow.

I just learned being the true you, might disappoint others. But to live your life is not about getting approval nor meet up whatever expectation is cast on you. The less one is concerned about what others think of them, the more relaxed things are going.

And by being you probably will attract similar minds, those who to some extend understand your values, accept your boundaries, appreciate your choices, expect less from you as you are for them, thus having a more balanced relationship. And still the most important things are: realizing, many things will disappoint you but one can always choose how to react and learn to practice kindness without ignoring that you too, has a limit.